God I hate work at the moment, Acid Annie is such a BITCH. Only trying to help with wall papering, yes believe it or not we are doing the decorating at the moment because Clammy Sammy is to FAT and LAZY to do anything. I have been told I don't put enough paste on the wallpaper but it hasn't come down yet also today she told me I wasn't allowed to do the edges because I put a bit of paint on the skirting board BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH. Well now thats out of me system I feel so much better now. The thing that gets me is, she always tells you how it should be done but never actually gets a paint brush in her hand and help. Never mind tomorrow is another day.

See you later. BIG HUGS xxxx

Well my day has been good apart from hearing things about Luke, not so good. Last night William and Abbey stayed over but at about 12.30am they both got up and wanted to go home I asked them why and they said that Luke was being rude. Abbey told me Luke was taking his clothes off and playing with himself. I am so ashamed of him, how dare he, I have spoken to Jordan and she said he has done it at home, she has told her mum, so he knows its wrong but obviously he needs his dad to tell him.

Got to go now Bart is waiting for me and I need a cup of tea. See you soon BIG HUGS xxx.

I keep having the same dream every night, that my front teeth have broken and all I have is the four fangs left which held the bridge in place. It makes me feel so worried that it wakes me up and the first thing I do is feel if my teeth are there. But its really strange as each night in my dream I must remember the last dream as I keep saying to myself but this only happened yesterday and I will have to go to the denist yet again but thankfully my dream never gets to the dentist part. I have read in a dream book that if you dream about loosing your teeth, its a sign of insecurity, so could be something to do with work. Oh well just thought I would share my dream with you.

I have just got this awfull feeling that my mum's party is all going to go wrong as I have invited my brother and Pauline and their kids to the party, and I just know that they are going to be little shits. Pauline does not keep an eye on her kids so I guess I will have to be the aunty from hell for the day. I have noticed when other people bring their kids round they aways want to through the stones in the swimming pool or stand all over the plants, we have spent so much money on that garden and I can see it all being demolished by my bothers kids.

Can't finish the rest of the decking as too many kids running around. So have started painting the tables and chairs. I don't like the colour much though its a kind of peach colour, oh well it will have to do as I have only got one more weekend to finish everything off. I have draw a plan of what I want the study to look like you'll love it. I am keeping the fire place but it will look nothing like it does at the moment. Hopefully Bart will keep it clean and tidy, he's getting there slowly as the lounge is well most of the time tidy, he still has his moments though, its really strange how Del boy and Bart are so alike, but most of all its so bloody anoying.

Any way Monday will be the start of the new place of work. Apparently clammy and acid annie are going to be painting it this weekend, yeh right, I bet they only manage one wall and expect us to finish it off. Well thats me going home early as I have done enough painting to last a life time and there is still so much more to do :o(. But that can wait until winter when I wont want to be outside.

Must go now as I have got loads of painting to do. Speak to you later. BIG KISSES xxx

Nearly finished the decking, oh how I wish I had choosen a normal patio with slabs. The thing is we now have the kids here and I am already letting them know when they do something wrong, god I feel so awful about that but I just can't help it, our house is not meant for children I wish I was more patient with them but I can't afford to let them get away with anything. Tomorrow they will probably want to go for a swim I have got so much to do. I have still got to re-paint the tables and chairs as yet got to do it before I go back to work monday. I am so tired been up since 7am painting I can't believe its taking me so long to paint the bloody decking what a nightmare. We also need to paint the exterior of the house before it starts getting too cold, oh I wonder which one of us will be doing that. Got to go as knowing Luke he will be up at 6am tomorrow and I don't like to leave him on his own for too long. Kids eh...
See you tomorrow HUGS and KISSES xxxx

No its OK just me going off on one yet again getting the wrong end of the stick. Bart has got a bike lesson on Saturday so I guess I will have to look after the kids. I hope you and Del and Rodders will still be able to come on the 1st September, it all depends on how you think Rodders will behave beens as there is a swimming pool if you think he will be a pain then I will understand if you decide not to come. Bart has decided not to have the kids that weekend as they get too excitable when there are lots of people around and turn into little horrors.

Any way got a letter today, no I didn't get the job yippee. Never felt haven't felt that relieved in a long while, but still in the back of my mind it would have been nice for me to refuse the job. Oh well never mind maybe next time.

Have to go now as I have to be up early tomorrow, got to finish painting the decking and I can't do it after 11am as the sun gets in the way and the paint is too sticky to brush on.

See Ya tomorrow. Love you lots xxxx

I haven't heard from the other company I applied for, so with any luck I haven't got the job. I really didn't know what to say to them if I had have got it, it wouldn't suite me anyway. I was talking to the manager of the business centre that Bart's company is moving to and he was saying that his logo needs to be updated. I said I would come and see him so wish me luck.

speak to you again tomorrow See Ya XXXXX

Well I am now a dole dosser, but not for much longer as I have told Terry to write a letter saying we have got another job that starts on 1st September so hopefully I will only have to sign on once. Its embarrassing going up there. Any way I have re-designed Bart's company logo and Ian is really excited about it, it give me a buzz to think my design makes someone feel excited. They are hopefully moving into a unit in the business centre down the road soon.

Oh my god, you told him well good for you but at the same time I can't help myself I just feel so sorry for you both, you know that it had to come to this.

Well tomorrows the day, we will all be unemployed got to go and sign on :o( not looking forward to that. Any way another problem is that we wont be getting another pay cheque until the end of September which means I wont be able to pay the mortgage. They will have to pay me cash I can't go overdrawn. I really don't know what I am going to do. We wont get redundancy money for at least 6 weeks from now.

Speak to you tomorrow. BIG HUG xxx

It was really good to hear your voice last night, I really miss you. Had a chat with J today, he wasn't very happy about me not being able to work for him if I got that job. Said he would speak to me next week when he gets back from his holiday, I really don't know why I am getting myself upset over it I know I wont get the job. Any way I have just got my very own website smudga design not up and running yet have to design a logo for it. I have just re-designed a new logo for sys3 its much better than their old one plus at least this time I have been paid for it. I will let you know when they put it on the website. Also another good thing Bart and the others might be getting a unit on the Plough Road Business Centre so at least I can start decorating the study and hopefully keep it clean and tidy. I have got a brilliant idea for the fire place I can't explain it you'll just have to wait until its done.

Must go know hope to speak to you again tomorrow. See ya BIG KISSES xxxxx

Hey got a new name for the cat Fat Boy Stan, apparently he goes round next doors to get fed so he has about 4 meals a day and of course the odd bird or mouse. He is such a pig.

How's the tooth. Don't worry you only have to wait for 6 months and then you can have a bridge, I must admit that the dentist bit is not something to look forward to. Your lisp will soon go, mine has but I still have a bit of a problem with the letter S not that anyone would notice and it has got better.

I have got my computer back put a G4 card in it and it goes like a rocket but done something stupid because I have still got my old hard drive in it as well as the new one I asked it to start up on my old hard drive and forgot that it runs on a different system so now it wont start up at all have to nick a copy of the new system from work. At least its a problem I think I can solve.

Well its nearly the weekend just hope it goes back to being hot and sunny again. I do look forward to my weekends especially when the weathers nice.

Did I tell you that Vince is going to be a Director for the new company and boy don't we know it already. So is Terry our sales rep as he is putting money into the new company, so at least Clammy and Acid Annie wont be able to tell us what to do. Apparently Acid Annie will have nothing to do with design or artwork so thats good. Mind you she has designed the logo for the new company which is CRAP, I have asked Terry if at some point I can re-design it and he said yes, so a BIG FAT UP YOUR BUM Acid Annie because mine will look better. I have also ask Terry if he will sack them both, he obviously didn't know how to say YES, he just grinned at me. Wonder why?

Sorry gone off on one as usual, any way how are you apart from the tooth thing and how is Rodder's has he learnt any new words yet. Did I tell you that Bart has gone and bought a bike and is going in for his test at the beginning of next month. I really don't like the idea but can't seem to stop him so I guess I will have to let him get on with it.

Any way must go as I didn't get much sleep last night. Speak to you tomorrow. BIG HUGS and KISSES til tomorrow. See Yah. xxx

Hi me again, had a bad day at work. Clammy Sammy has got it in his head to not make us redundant said he dosn't want us to claim redundancy, because he will have to pay towards it, BLOODY CHEEK. As it happens he dosn't pay anything it all comes from the government so yet again he's talking out of his arse, nothing unusual there then. Acid Annie is being her usual misserable bitch self, while me and pippa are suffering I have got ulsers in my mouth a lump in my throat and stomach pains, poor pippa's glands have come up and she can hardly talk, and its all due to the stress they are putting on us. I have decided that when we are employed by the new company I am going to ask for a pay rise as I have never had one. Hopefully it wont come to that, and I'll find myself another job. The liquidators are coming in at 12 noon tomorrow so maybe we will be able to go home early. Its strange because clammy said we will be there for another 3 weeks yet, but working for the other company, but how can we, we will be using the old company's equipment which is going up for auction. See thats what I mean by stress I just don't understand any of this.

Well I was only 7 at the time I had to wear a plate couldn't have a bridge until I was 18. Best thing to do it take it out quickly, don't look at it just scrub it with a tooth brush. You'll get used to it and the lisp will go, I used the denist on North Hill, but before that I used to think that my teeth were the best that they could do but apparently not I just had a crap denist, but not this time thank god. I think you should see about getting a bridge done and NOT screw in ones as they have a tendancy to fall out but a bridge wont. Mine lasted me 16 years so thats not bad and I have been told you can tell if its a good bridge because the gum should slightly overlap the tooth and shouldn't go black. So I hope that is of some help to you. It's not a nice thing to have done but at the end of the day at least you will be able to smile and laugh without it falling out.

No haven't moved yet or heard about the other job but I will let you know as soon as I hear something. Must go now as dinner is ready.

See Yah xxx.